Are You Human? I am.

As many of you know, I teach yoga - I’m a yoga teacher.
This might impact the way you imagine I show up as a yoga student... but let me just tell you how human I am.

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It's Thursday evening. 5 minutes before class I decided that yes, I was in-fact going to do yoga tonight at home. (I teach many online classes a week and yet I don’t take that many myself)

Grab my computer. Get the link to class. Log into Zoom. Keep my camera off. Shit, I need to change my clothes. Wait. I want to listen to music in class, turn that on. I need my mat, my journal too, and did the cat really just poop?!

Needless to say, I was late to my at home live Zoom class. Oh, but it gets worse, I WAS UNMUTED THE WHOLE TIME! (Insert horror face emoji here) (sorry Mikey).

I was so embarrassed when I finally made it to my mat and realized everyone could hear my music and my scrambling. I had a "Do I stay or do I run?" moment, but ultimately I muted myself, turned my camera on, and got on my mat.

For the next few minutes I struggled. Asana felt sooo slow, and my mind was jumping all over the place. I was very much in my head and not in my body.

This is the practice….. a little voice whispers.

Ahhh, something clicks. I'm focusing on my breath, can feel my body, everything is flowing. I've slowed down and landed on my mat.

But then I get distracted - there are so many dust bunnies, how can that be? I just vacuumed yesterday. Has this pose always been so hard?

This is the practice….. that little voice whispers.

By savasana I understand what my inner voice was reminding me. I'm a human, you're a human, and life is going to be messy. We are going to show up late, get embarrassed, and distracted. Our yoga practice will reflect this but the practice is to keep with it. To come back to our breath and our bodies and find moments of ease and peace in this crazy, imperfect, messy life we live.

Your Human Yoga Teacher,